Tuesday, February 27, 2007
I'm slowly learning that love is accepting people for who they are, NOT what they do.
And in turn, I'm realizing I am not loved for what I do, but who I am. It's revelation to me because I have been decieved and my vision impaired. Thanks be to God, that He can save me from heading down a path of a performing wonder drug.
And in turn, I'm realizing I am not loved for what I do, but who I am. It's revelation to me because I have been decieved and my vision impaired. Thanks be to God, that He can save me from heading down a path of a performing wonder drug.
Labels: Revelations
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Freedom
Rest In Peace Trav...
Travis Baumgardt (1986-2007)
Miranda Hancock's brother, Travis, died Friday morning at 21 years of age. Miranda got the chance to lead Travis to God prior to his death, so today my friends, he's enjoying sweet bliss, free from pain and that is something praiseworthy. I'm sorry I wasn't there when everything about me says I should've been. We'll see you again Travis, we'll see you again.
Travis Baumgardt (1986-2007)
Miranda Hancock's brother, Travis, died Friday morning at 21 years of age. Miranda got the chance to lead Travis to God prior to his death, so today my friends, he's enjoying sweet bliss, free from pain and that is something praiseworthy. I'm sorry I wasn't there when everything about me says I should've been. We'll see you again Travis, we'll see you again.
Friday, February 16, 2007
Bathtub Swimming
I see that my heart is more like a Pharisee... and how shallow my love really is. It's quite humbling.
Labels: Learning Humility...
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Why do I believe what people tell me without raising a finger of question, but when the creator of the universe says something to me, I doubt it without hesitation?
Labels: Questions
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Something Changed!
So it's been awhile... We're already one month into the new year, only 11 more months left! I was thinking back on my January and wow... what a difficult month, in fact, even Feb is looking like it will be a difficult month. There's been so much happening, life is just constantly shifting around me.
About mid January I started to feel disconnected with everything. The foundations of my life began to shake and I didn't really feel like I had a firm place to put my feet on. (Obviously, God is the answer, but don't get all spiritual on me now!) To put it into words it's like feeling restless on a Sunday afternoon when you're so bored but don't know what to do with yourself. Or when you're trying to go to sleep and no matter what you do, you just can't. So you're tossing and turning until it becomes frustrating. That's how I've been feeling. Just wanting ...something... just not knowing what that 'something' is. So it was on this past Friday that life took about a 180 degree change...
My job began to get immensly boring because there just isn't enough work for a full 8.5 hours for me to do and I become feeling like a bad employee because I can't find work to do. Considering I don't really know where I want to be at the moment, I do know I have a few passions and how can I go wrong with pursuing those? I've always said I would rather work for little or no pay to be at a job I love being at, rather than work at a job I hate, making lots of money. Blatantly honest, I've never cared how much money I'll make compared to the condition of my heart at any working environment. It's just not even a question.
So I walked into my boss' office on Friday and spent nearly 10 minutes convicing him to switch me to part time and it didn't take much. Full time for me was a waste of his money and my time. So it was done! On Monday I walked in at 10am and left at 2pm and it felt great! I got some time to just do some things for me, spend some decent time with God and not feel like my day is a complete rush from one activity to the next.
It feels good to be able to breathe.. although, there's quite abit more going on that's changing than just this, but it's helping me once again practice trusting God.. and keeping my eyes on Him. It's scary though... coming to the top of a mountain and having no clue what's on the other side, how big, long, wide, tall, difficult, painful, loving, etc. There is no sense of knowledge of what's over the horizon and I'm not so sure I like that but I can say that I AM fully confident that God has His hand all over my life and He'll take me where I need to go.
About mid January I started to feel disconnected with everything. The foundations of my life began to shake and I didn't really feel like I had a firm place to put my feet on. (Obviously, God is the answer, but don't get all spiritual on me now!) To put it into words it's like feeling restless on a Sunday afternoon when you're so bored but don't know what to do with yourself. Or when you're trying to go to sleep and no matter what you do, you just can't. So you're tossing and turning until it becomes frustrating. That's how I've been feeling. Just wanting ...something... just not knowing what that 'something' is. So it was on this past Friday that life took about a 180 degree change...
My job began to get immensly boring because there just isn't enough work for a full 8.5 hours for me to do and I become feeling like a bad employee because I can't find work to do. Considering I don't really know where I want to be at the moment, I do know I have a few passions and how can I go wrong with pursuing those? I've always said I would rather work for little or no pay to be at a job I love being at, rather than work at a job I hate, making lots of money. Blatantly honest, I've never cared how much money I'll make compared to the condition of my heart at any working environment. It's just not even a question.
So I walked into my boss' office on Friday and spent nearly 10 minutes convicing him to switch me to part time and it didn't take much. Full time for me was a waste of his money and my time. So it was done! On Monday I walked in at 10am and left at 2pm and it felt great! I got some time to just do some things for me, spend some decent time with God and not feel like my day is a complete rush from one activity to the next.
It feels good to be able to breathe.. although, there's quite abit more going on that's changing than just this, but it's helping me once again practice trusting God.. and keeping my eyes on Him. It's scary though... coming to the top of a mountain and having no clue what's on the other side, how big, long, wide, tall, difficult, painful, loving, etc. There is no sense of knowledge of what's over the horizon and I'm not so sure I like that but I can say that I AM fully confident that God has His hand all over my life and He'll take me where I need to go.
Labels: News
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